i asked myself...do i ever cover my ears when God is trying to teach me about something before it grows into a problem? do i purposely ignore His gentle voice as He tries to lead me in the right direction because i 'just didn't want to hear it'?
unfortunately...i answered myself...or God answered me...
i ignore Him. all. the. time.
i am so ashamed to post this...but promised i would be naked (metaphorically ;) ) here...even if it's ugly...so as long as He gets glory in the end it will be worth it. but it is still hard to see. i have written about my effectiveness as a Christian witness and feeling small and ignored. what a shame that i might make my Creator feel the same way.
it's time to pull my hands from my ears and listen more closely for God's words to me. (i am great at listening for God's words for other people...not so great at receiving words for myself.)
sigh. thanks God...for your grace and mercy. that even when i am obviously ignoring Your words...You never stop speaking to me. thanks for giving me the choice to listen or not to listen.
Jesus. i choose You.